The basketball bit (if you don't care, then skim through or skip entirely)
Tonight we lost yet another basketball game and I think it's all beginnng to be a blur. I know that we've never played together and some of our players are new to the game etc. But I don't even think we're playing the best with what we have. And I certainly haven't played my best. Thing is, for me to play my best, I need to be practicing more, training more, get fitter, lose some weight. But you know what, I don't think I can be arsed. I have this idea of me on the court. The kind of player I am. The idea is based on my memories of how I used to play. A whole lifetime and about 15 kilos ago. I used to have so much energy, so much hops. And the game was much more enjoyable. Starting out playing with taller people, I've always envisioned myself playing outside, as a facillitator and defender mainly. I would score in a pinch too. Good for about 10 a game. Now, I try to score more but am more often than not unsuccessful. The one part of my game that remains (more or less) intact is my pride and joy driving game. I still feel that I can drive against just about any defense. Only thing is, I can no longer finish. My hands just don't move like they used to. My mind don't either. Thing is, I'm starting to question whether I was really ever as good as I thought or if I was just playing against really crap competition. That seems unlikely though. I know I was more motivated before. Now I'm kinda on cruise control. Anyway, I'm bored talking about this. I should think of more ways how we can win.

The writing bit (and life and stuff)
I started writing again last night. Wrote a page of my Magic story but then I had to stop. I'm in the worng mood to write. I haven't written any more tonight. That's why I haven't blogged either. I have so little to say these days. That's also why I've put on hold my next big personal writing project. I need to feel excited again. The only things that I feel excited about these days are work possibilities and guitar playing. Two things that are right now not that great but the forecast is bluer skies ahead. Well, at least I'm not unhappy. My friend (the O in H&O) sounds miserable. Miserable and melodramatic. He said one night he snapped and decided to take all his stories off H&O. So now I'm one again. I'm not going to do that. I've left too many things unfinished. The new Christian will follow though. He might bitch and moan about it. And it might take ages. But he'll follow though. Magic for Beginners will have an ending.