just found on Facebook this old friend of mine that I lost touch with. We had a short but nice bond for a little while and now it seems she's married. To the guy who, when we last spoke, had been a total dickhead to her. I mean, really bad...

I guess maybe they figured things out. Or maybe he changed his spots. Or maybe dickheads do finish first... seems to happen a lot.

But I gathered this info while going through some pics which I probably shouldn't have. Someone I don't know that a friend told me to 'check out'.

So fruit from the poison tree and all that. I can't use this to get her contacts. I would love to be able to say hi.

But I just hope you're doing OK and that these years have treated you kindly.

even though you know it's not really real, it's still nice. It's still nice to think someone cares. Someone loves you. Someone thinks the world of you. And yes it's not real. Only foolish people and those under the age of fifteen should expect anything other than that this game must end at some point. And most likely in a fizzle or a fit or a ful-blown tragedy.

But that doesn't really mean it should stop you from keeping on going. It's fun for the moment and so maybe you should just ride it out until the inevitable end when walls will weep and hearts will be plucked out and ground to a paste of infinite shrieking and gnashing of teeth.

Oh to be so dramatic!

But that's the game isn't it? To be played with full gusto and spirit until the bitter end. Or the unlikely scenario that you actually finish the game and you rescue the princess or the princess rescues you. What would happen then?

how am i supposed to know when you finally start meaning these things!

It's not a question. It's a demand.

And this all could be a waste of time. But it's only a waste of time if you have something better to do.